[ Sam doesn't take the distance to heart - it's painful but necessary. That much he understands.
He takes a slow, shuddering breath as Bucky talks. Explains how this has to happen - how this will happen. Sam's fingertips feel numb. He thinks, for a moment that he can hear thunder rumbling in the distance, like an oncoming storm. Like a breeze about to pick up and scatter him to ash and dust.
But that doesn't matter right now.
That's not important right now. ]
I know you trust but. But I need you to hear this anyway.
[ Steadfast. he can be that for others, always. He's used to being that for others. ]
This is in your control. Once you... [ He swallows. ] Once you're under, nothing is happening that you haven't explicitly told me to do beforehand. For this situation here on board the station, that needs to be the framwork. And I know that don't make anything better for you. And I need you to know that if you can't look at me right away after that's alright. But I need you to hear me on this. You make the choices. You have the control... even if you give it to be temporarily.
[ It makes his skin crawl. The very thought of it. But for Bucky's safety. For all their safety. What Sam wants can't matter as much as what Bucky needs. ]
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He takes a slow, shuddering breath as Bucky talks. Explains how this has to happen - how this will happen. Sam's fingertips feel numb. He thinks, for a moment that he can hear thunder rumbling in the distance, like an oncoming storm. Like a breeze about to pick up and scatter him to ash and dust.
But that doesn't matter right now.
That's not important right now. ]
I know you trust but. But I need you to hear this anyway.
[ Steadfast. he can be that for others, always. He's used to being that for others. ]
This is in your control. Once you... [ He swallows. ] Once you're under, nothing is happening that you haven't explicitly told me to do beforehand. For this situation here on board the station, that needs to be the framwork. And I know that don't make anything better for you. And I need you to know that if you can't look at me right away after that's alright. But I need you to hear me on this. You make the choices. You have the control... even if you give it to be temporarily.
[ It makes his skin crawl. The very thought of it. But for Bucky's safety. For all their safety. What Sam wants can't matter as much as what Bucky needs. ]